Tag: mental illness
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Struggling
I’m sad because of stuff. Anniversaries and conflict and isolation and shit. But I got a stain off the rug. Yay?
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NDIS Approved
Yaaaaaaaaaaaay. I “should” be happy, but it feels like it’s come after so much damage has already been done, after so long begging for someone, anyone, to believe me. After things might be too far gone. So all I feel is grief.
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I DID A THING
come out god, fight me, you coward (wait a sec nevermind I saw a bird)
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THE SICKNESS UNTO DEATH
*evangelion intensifies* ok no not really
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MILD TO MODERATE BLEH
I’ve been noticing a few things. A pattern, I guess. Behaviour. I’ve been taking baby steps towards being OK. The moment they make a tiny difference, I notice my husband’s anger. Sometimes towards me, and sometimes directed at our son. And I’m sure I’m “causing” some of it by trying to set small boundaries. By…
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GO PLAY OUTSIDE, DAMMIT
Look, I was feeling really good. REALLY good. The weather is gorgeous, I had a good swim, I was getting stuff done. And then I ran into the unequal workload in our house. Again. And I got angry. But that’s going to keep happening. My husband has no energy, and he can’t feel his feelings.…
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COMPUTERS ARE THE WORST
I had an upsetting thought today. I was going through photos and saw things from this time last year. And I was making things, and starting to kind of… heal. Not from trauma, just from the isolation of motherhood. But it was sad for two reasons. One is that my trauma damaged the friendship that…